A Thought But Out Loud

  Well, well, well here we go!!!! I can literally hear everyone screaming its DEAD 😵 Too many women I know struggle and even men are struggling with the idea of romance. Maybe the problem is that we see it as just an idea and not something we truly want to implement into our relationships. Love is a VERB. I can’t remember the last time I was getting into a car and the man held the door open for me but to be completely honest I feel like that may have happened three weeks ago when I was hopping into my Lyft with this guy who likes to play my boyfriend on occasion, and it felt awkward. I am pretty sure it felt awkward because no one ever does it. When I think of romance, I think about the movies I have watched over and over again that show guys that are hopelessly in love and go to hell and back to make sure the girl realizes how much he wants to be with her.  Flash into reality really quick the IG DM ugh or tinder not my particular thing but a lot of people are Tinder, Bumble ...

 It’s funny the twists and turns of this thing called life.  I feel like we are all just here winging it and even when someone gives us a blueprint or sets it up for us it's still never easy.  I mainly think it's not easy because of all of things like the conditioning and the brainwashing that comes from society.   Life is so fleeting and to think we worry almost our entire lives about love and money and some of us just worry about the basics or bare minimums a place to lay their head at night.  You know when I lived out of my car for a week one time, I never realized how much I took taking a shower for granted.   I called this blog The Imitation of Life because it was the name of a movie my mother introduced to me! It’s about a mixed girl who could pass completely for white, but her father had disowned her, so she only had her black mother who looked after her. She hated her mother for being black...

  Most people won't read this one.  Do you know why? Probably because they think they know it all lol!!! When starting anything new have you ever noticed ever one has advice even the people who have not even attempted what you are about to do.  When you start a business someone who has never had one wants to tell you all the things about how to start and what you need to do.  When you are starting school, a person could have literally only got their GED and yet they know about all the things this college you are attending is going to be like. You don't cook lasagna, but you have reason to believe you can tell them the best sauces and exactly how long it needs to be cooked.  Never surfed a day in your life but you have all the information on what it takes to ride the waves.    Okay you get it, and you may also be saying I can still know about things I have never done, because the truth is people research...

Why is bad stuff happening to Meeee 😩 The big ugly question right??? And sometimes we ask this question and have literally not considered if it’s really as bad as we think . I’m not at all trying to downplay how upset you are , nor am I saying they are not bad things.     We truly have to look at everything from the beginning to end and then we can say how bad it really is. When you started your journey half the time things may be way worst when you start and then the middle of it all is not as bad but I think because we get laser focused on outcome that’s all we see . But we can’t help but ask why?  To be honest sometimes it’s for growth , sometimes for a lesson learned which kind of relates to growth when you are being taught lessons . Challenging times and being uncomfortable is literally the fucking worst but sometimes when  you get to the end and see how it all ties in to make you who you become I promise you it will be worth it . Even if it isn’t exactly the ...

  Well, its super obvious that I should be talking about the grind.  Especially since I haven't posted since damn near January.  I had my Grand Opening for my Permanent Makeup Microblading studio in Atlanta and I have been Bartending in Midtown!! Yay to me getting shit done right!!💙 But honestly inflation has been an absolute Bitch!  I feel like I am constantly on the move, and I know everyone else is no stranger to this life of go go go!!   I sometimes just want to give back to those less fortunate than me.  Its interesting to me that finding the time to even do noble things has been hard lately.  Its definitely a time thing.  To be honest if there was one thing I could do it would be volunteer, but I am literally trying to understand how do the laws of the land insist we just run around paying bills all the time this is the most mindless thing I can think of to enforce on a society.  Working to ...

It took me a minute to write this one because I had been going through a lot of different things.  Growing constantly.  So sometimes I miss my moments to out pour my thoughts.  But out of nowhere this popped into my head, and I realized I needed to say this out loud.  Uncertainty means many things.  Doubt, skepticism, suspicion. The inability to make a decision, wavering between conclusions, lacking conviction or knowledge about an outcome or result.   Okay okay you get it. You just don't  know what to expect  or where you will end up.  It has been a big part of my life in a lot of things even currently with my businesses.  But to be honest relationships that I have never make me feel certain and I don't  know if that's  something with me or is it the consistent lack of communication from both ends causing the uncertain  feelings.   I know when I am certain about something I feel honestly happier and mo...

  Isn’t it crazy when you think of all the things that adulting throws at you???  The world we live in has changed so much over the last 10 years and I am so glad to see I am changing with it. One thing you don’t want to do is stop changing. Not changing and growing alone can cause an environment that will be toxic to your mind and soul, and it will spread a negative example.  I compiled a short list of things we can do to help find peace in a storm. One of the best ways that we can find peace is by meditating and starting our day with a mentality of being able to give and receive. Giving knowledge and receiving knowledge.  And trust me I get it when no one wants to hear everything will be okay or how do you even focus on peace when everything is so chaotic. I can’t lie that is hard. But learning to navigate hard is where you will actually find your peace. It’s such a weird perspective but if you think that when everything is easy that’s when you will find peace th...